Monday, October 14, 2013

What an awesome day today!

Words can't even describe my joy when Leah has a good day! She only had one clonic/tonic seizure Saturday night and only one last night. She has had MANY absent seizures but those don't wear her out like clonic/tonic ones.  So basically when she doesn't have big seizures our baby girl comes back to us and she did today. It was absolutely beautiful!!! She held her head up all day, SERIOUSLY!!! I can't believe it! She held her head up and also turned her head to look at me many many times. She tracked me all day. When I moved she turned to find me. WOW!!! I can't believe I am writing all this right now. Her little spirit connected with me today!!! Through her beautiful eyes she showed that she knew I was her mom and that we have a special bond! I treasured today. I held her and talked to her and she peacefully fell asleep in my arms tonight. It was so beautiful! I thanked my Heavenly Father over and over for today! It was a blessing from above. I know my little girl is fully there. I am so thankful a window opened and I got to see her for a moment. I use to get angry at God when she would come to us for a day and the next day she was gone again. I felt like I was being tortured I questioned God why he would do that to me. I would cry and cry! I have no angry towards God now. That attitude does nothing good, it just destroys us! I now just have a very humbled heart full of love and gratitude! I was blessed today! I am so humbled that I got this beautiful day today!

1 comment:

  1. I'm so glad you were able to see that little girl! -Teri